The sun is shining here today.
In many ways. Not just outside but also inside.
I have had a terrible couple of days.
I have not been feeling myself at all. Aggressive. Down. All over the place.
Last night while laying in bed I just keep asking myself why? Why was I feeling like this?
I had no answers, I decided to retreat to the fact that I am HUMAN and that I am allowed to have days where I don't feel crash hot.
I get really hard on myself when I take my feelings out on my children. The last few days all I feel like I have contributed to this household is shouting. A big fat ball of grump.
I decided last night that I was going to wake up this morning with a big attitude shift.
A dear friend said to me the other day told me to beware of burn out.
I actually think I was heading that way. I had to take a step back to see that.
I have a habit of biting off more than I can chew.
James has finsished therapy now for 2016. A whole 6 week break from everything.
Obviously we still do OT (sensory diet), speech and some homeschool during the holidays but there are no external therapy appointments. There is a gastroenterologist appointment and a doctors appointment for James but pretty painless.
Its now getting to that time to set goals for 2017.
I really would like to take the next step in spreading awareness for ASD.
I am going to throw it to the wind and see where it takes me.
I thank you all for your love and support already on this journey. You have given me the boost I have needed when I have been at my lowest. I just read this morning a mothers heartfelt letter about her and her ASD sons journey, their journey has just started. Reading her words put me right back at that stage, right along side her. Do we ever lose that feeling? The feeling of being told your child has ASD? That gut churning moment, the label deep down you knew that would be placed upon your lives?
I grieved a life I thought I wanted.... this is so much better. I feel like I have purpose. This was my destiny. What a beautiful journey it is.... thank you for being apart of it.