The plan to make NO plans...
Can I do it?
Well, I am going to try!
Today is the first day of the term 2 school holidays here in Australia.
James has no preschool, no therapies and no activities ( except one trial class, I will touch on this another day).
Living in the autism world is all about routine, structure, repetition.
We plan everything, absolutely everything.
And you know what... I am tired, tired of living by the monthly schedule on my fridge. The schedule that has 5 million things scribbled all over it, from schooling, therapies, specialist appointments and everything in between.
Normally when we get to the school holidays I have scheduled in activities, extra therapy sessions, I fill us up. I have always filled us up in fear of the holt to our normal weekly routine and how that will effect James and ultimately our sanity.
This school holidays I decided to take a break.
I need a break too. A break from the constant on point, organised special needs parenting.
I want to go with the 'flow'...
The 'flow' so far has back fired a little but I am determined to make this work.
Saturday morning just gone I made a spontaneous decision to book a hotel in the city for the evening with my little fam bam.
As soon as daddy got home at 12 pm we headed to Darling Harbour for a little escape.
I had plans to walk around Darling Harbour, enjoy good food, grab a coffee and sit and drink it along the water. Perhaps take the kids to the aquarium or reptile park.
BUT it was not to be. James was uncomfortable the whole time we were away from home. It made me realise that our 'normal' is a different 'normal'.
We couldn't sit and eat like a normal family, we couldn't walk around and enjoy the scenery, we didn't even make it to the kids activities due to the little mans issue with self regulation.
So with that said I realised that our life is beautiful... it's a beautiful chaos, we may not be able to be super spontaneous and enjoy the non structured moments in peace BUT we sure do have love.
We also have fun, daily. But our fun is just a little different.
What is normal these days anyway?
Is anything classed as normal?
Comparison to others is always dangerous and always turns out negative.
We do the best us and our us is our normal.
So this school holidays I am going to embrace our normal and try and go with the flow....