I need WINE! Repeat I NEED WINE!
James just squirted Scarlett's yoghurt all over the floor.... Scarlett then thought she would attempt to lick it off the floor while I was chasing James around the house, NOT to bash him up just to wipe his yoghurt covered feet so that it didn't go all over the carpet. James was laughing so hard that he made me laugh so hard that I thought I was going to pee myself.
I wan to be mad at him, but I can't, I can't be mad because this is what kids are suppose to do... they are suppose to push button and test the boundaries... so it's a proud moment instead!
You know while I was cleaning up the yoghurt I was thinking to myself, when James was about 18months old and he had limited eye contact, I prayed for this day! The day we would just get each other without it being forced. He has come out of the shadows, through lots of dedication and hard work. He is not always comfortable in this world but it works damn hard now to regulate his system and stay present. Win!
I am now sitting here writing another blog for today. Deleted my first one (Mum said it was ranting too much), second one was just because I felt slack deleting the first and now I am actually sitting to write because I just feel like I need to. Guess what... Daddy is bringing Mummy home WINE. I can't do that no more. I think that if I need an occasional wine because I am feeling defeated then I should have a wine.
While I sit and write this my two gremlins are wrestling on the floor. There have been times when I thought to myself that it was a bad idea having these two so close together. The days when James was so uncomfortable and Scarlett was just a baby crying, James couldn't handle her crying and would go into meltdown. Then all 3 of us would be screaming and crying. They were the days that I drank a bottle of wine a day, starting at 3pm. I may or may not be telling the truth here.... eeeekkkkkk.
I have something really really exciting happening. I really hope that its ready to release to you really soon. I feel so strongly about getting my message out to the world and really feel this is my calling! I have so many conversations with people daily about ASD, its so misunderstood! I meet many ignorant people and the only way to make people less ignorant is to keep at it! Never stop, keep educating. 1 in 68 children are diagnosed on the Autism Spectrum. So somewhere somehow someone will be enlightened and touched with ASD. Be aware, be educated. Knowledge is POWER. People say 'but why is it around so much these days', that's because in the olden days only severely Autistic people were being diagnosed. We know more about it today. ASD is a spectrum a huge spectrum, no two ASD humans are the same, ASD is an umbrella for multiple disorders, someone with ASD can have one or more of the disorders to be placed with the label. The label is for assistance. A label to ensure we are giving these humans a fair go, they have a different operating system. Different not less. I say this as my son lines up the balls from the ballpitt on the floor counting them..... atleast he knows his numbers!
Positive light & love,