Today has started much better than yesterday, thanks for asking (LOL)!
For starters I have actually managed to shower and brush my teeth! Scarlett and I are still unwell but we are VIRGO's so we know how to push through that shit.
So James started at a new Occupational Therapist today and it was fantastic, she is fantastic, they bonded straight away and James had no anxiety! Thank god Wollongong now has a fantastic sensory based OT! It was so so difficult getting James in the car every Wednesday morning to travel an hour to therapy. #WINNING
You know I was thinking to myself this morning how much I have changed.....
I am a strong, patient and confident person!!!!!
I am an AUTISM mum.!
I am like a vicious Tiger sometimes, the day James was born I instantly changed, I was now an incredibly protective human. BUT that steps up a level when you realize you are a Autism parent, believe me!
I don't put up with anyone's bull****.... like at all!
I have a lot on my plate, I have a lot at stake... a little boy who needs not only my love but he needs me fight for his rights! And the rights of all other children on the Autism Spectrum
I like who I have become, I am a resilient FIGHTER!
I love it when people say to me 'I couldn't do what yo do' and I think you would if you had too.... but also I think 'NO YOU COULDN'T' and then I have this image in my head of them sitting in the corner rocking themselves backwards and forwards staring at the wall crying (sorry I have a vivid imagination).
Autism can beat you down, it can challenge every inch of your being BUT it is also the most magical thing in our lives. Autism is a beautiful logical brain, a soft spoken being that has NOT one bad bone, Autism is a loving caring soul. Autism doesn't need to be shut away it needs to be celebrated.... Autism is really just a different way. Different not less!
So I have decided on the hard days I am going to pinch myself and remember how strong I am!
I am a super human AUTISM MUM!
I actually was saying that over in my head just now when Mr James decided he wanted me to repeat going to the toilet 5 times.... 5 times! All because the first 4 times I didn't do it in the order his brain told him it needed to be done! So he says 'do again'....
This happens a lot. It's called THEORY OF MIND!
THEORY OF MIND refers to Autistic individuals not understanding that other people have their own points of view, own plans and own thoughts. James struggles with THEORY OF MIND when he is feeling overwhelmed. So he will CONTROL the situation. Maybe I am Autistic because I often think I can do something better than other people ..... HAHAHAHAHAHA TRUE STORY!
James has SPD and can't control his environment a LOT of the time so he will try and control what he can.... clearly mums toilet breaks are something he thinks he can control....... nope James I've had kids sometimes I DON'T even know I am about to PEE......