What do you do when your so worn down, beat, absolutely nothing left to give?
No! You work on some sort of auto pilot, like the angels around you are holding you together and holding you up. Supporting your whole being. Soul. Physical body and sanity.
I have been struggling lately. Really struggling. Anxiety of the unknown.
I was busting for this weekend just gone. Husband was finally home with us, for one whole day. I was excited to have some time to breathe. I needed time to breathe. I didn't need to run away or be alone I just needed the extra hands and supports at home that are not generally here because he is so busy supporting us in other ways.
It didn't even occur to me that he would need time too.
So what do you do when he is as physically and mentally drained as you?
Nope! There's those angels again. Holding us up. And they did!
Theo and myself were so exhausted yesterday. Neither of us had anything left. Our tanks were empty. We honestly did bare minimum to get through the day the best we could. While my body felt like it was shutting down from exhaustion, Theo had a migraine that lasted the day.
It never occurred to me that he would be feeling the same as me.
He equally holds us together. He stresses. He feels it all just like me over here.
We just have each other to rely on and it's hard.
We are beat. Exhausted and our batteries need much needed charging.
Soon, very soon we are going on another family holiday.
We need it. We need to unplug and recharge our batteries
All I wanted to say I suppose is, make time, make time to recharge. We may not have the ability to do daily or even weekly recharge but we do 6 monthly holidays.
Whatever your vice, do it!
We all need to charge ourselves up.
Special needs, additional needs, mainstream parents.... we all have challenges that grind us down. It's about acknowledging where you are at and doing whatever it takes to get back up.