Sensory OVERLOAD. SENSORY OVERLOAD. SENSORY OVERLOAD
FUN, FUN ..... FUN!
WTF, where is the F**king WINE already.
My poor baby boy. If I am feeling like this. Imagine. Just imagine how he is doing.
James went to pre school today.
Now he hasn't been to school for 4 weeks. We had a holiday and then he was sick and then I was tossing up whether to send him for the rest of the year or not.
I decided yesterday that he should go for the next two weeks just for social interaction. It was only 4 days in total.
I told the school this morning if he displayed any anxiety or if anything is a concern, call me and I will collect him. I never heard from them, so I assumed he was great.
Wrong I was...
I walked in the door and James hung to me like a koala and couldn't get out the door quick enough.
He was tired. We get to the car and he starts SCREAMING. Like the uncontrollable SCREAM. The whole way home.
James is still screaming. I have tried all that I know.
He has sore ankles, sore feet, dehydrated and overloaded.
This is ASD, well SPD but ASD because they are all the same thing apparently.
This is reality.
We take 5 steps forward and one big fat screaming step backwards.
James' glass is well and truly overflowing this afternoon and I feel so helpless. These are the moments that my stomach just churns and churns and churns.
All I can do is wait for him to regulate.
He is sitting with his ipad at the moment. The ipad allows him to zone into his visual and auditory senses allowing his body to regulate the rest.
If he goes to sleep right about now that will be the best thing... for all of us.
Scarlett is so good when he is like this. She tries to comfort him, he allows her 50% of the time. She knows when to back away. She is totally intune with him.
I am going to hop off the computer now.
Thanks for listening to my rant, as usual.
These are the days that I wish didn't exist.
James came to me for a reason. I am stronger than these moments and I will shed my Mummy tear, pulled my big girl pants up, have a sip of wine and just sort it out.
Because I am a warrior Mum and thats what we do.
Glasses (champagne) up to you warrior Mums xx