Since James' diagnosis in January 2016 I have gone through many stages and phases personally.
In my entire life I don't think I have ever gone through so many emotions or change.
I have certainly evolved.
I have experienced:
I have asked why?
I have had to let go of ideals and the family image I once dreamt.
You name it and I have felt it, lived it and it's all burnt deep into my soul.
One thing is for sure my love for my son has never ever altered, ever.
Recently I have gone through a massive shift...
I can't explain it.
Am I at a place of acceptance?
Finally, after 1.5 years... am I there?
I no longer feel the need to tell people my son has autism.
He is just James.
Does this mean for the last 1.5 years during my advocacy I have been lying to the world that I have accepted our fate???
Maybe... because NOW I feel so at ease.
It is what it is.
He is who he is.
Labels removed, he is James.
I no longer need to know why we are here... it's our destiny and we will live in peace, love and we will continue change the world! That I am sure.
We will fight for inclusion, support and understanding.
We will do it with positivity, grace and style.
We are all different and not less than and we are going to blow your minds with what brilliant minds CAN DO.