Good Morning... it's Monday 10.30am this WORLD.
I was so relieved that James baby was going to Pre School today.
He is a child that needs constant activities to make sure he gets the intellectual stimulation he requires. We do a pretty damn good job to keep up with him but sometimes, like when I have a headache or don't feel 100% its beyond draining.
He has been sicked so he has missed out on a LOT of therapy and activities he requires to remain calm, cool and collected.
He was so excited to go to school today!
I am now sitting next to Miss S who has been up since 5am.
I need her to have a nap now because soon the carpet cleaners will be here to clean the vomit from the lounge and carpet from last weeks effort.
I am not looking forward to the house smelling of chemicals as I limit chemicals as much as possible in our house but unfortunately NO natural remedy will remedy that issue.
Started my Christmas shopping over the weekend, while we were inside like caged animals! I am really looking forward to Christmas this year, James and Scarlett really know who Santa is and they are so excited! My Mum and Dad will also be here for Christmas so I can't wait to have my families version of Christmas. You really miss what you grow up with, so it will be nice to have that in my own home this year and share it with my babies.
James is really hard to buy for..... James has a LOT of STUFF already.
All you ASD parents will probably be in the same situation.
We buy James new toys so often, not that we really want to half the time but he watches youtube videos of the latest things and wants them and when he shows interest in something we provide it purely because he is out of the shadows and enjoying, interacting and functional playing with something he loves which is a TICK TICK TICK.
Scarlett Baby just started snoring... bless her cotton socks!
James went to his Big Yiayia's house with his Daddy yesterday.
Big Yiayia is Theos grandmother, James' great grandmother.
James used to be really scared of her and get bad anxiety when he was around her. Theo started taking James to her house when no one is was around and she would just hang out in the background and not talk to him or approach him. She allowed him to warm up in her space first and then she got closer and closer. NOW, he gets so excited to go to her house! Yesterday he was asking to go see her and play with her chicken (chase them).
Theo sent me so many photos and videos of the time they spent together, its so beautiful for him to have this special bond with her. They cuddled. Talked about life. Chased chickens and she got him to eat some apple and some pear!!!
James was there for quiet some time yesterday and went into meltdown when it was time to leave.
It was the first time Yiayia got to see James in meltdown, we shield family and friends from it, people don't need to see that... but yesterday Yiayia saw it and she was devastated. Theo said she was crying and felt helpless.... thats how we all feel half the time!
Anyway, it reminds me of the special bond I had with my great grandparents!
Nan and Pop Newton... I used to pick flowers with my Pop, he had the most amazing garden. He would make me cucumbers in vinegar, fresh cucumbers from his garden. I would eat his prunes. I stayed there often and I always felt so safe, their house had so much love and warmth. I miss them. I know their around though. I often sense my Nan close to me, when I am really down in the dumps I get this flooding smell of moth balls and a tingle on my skin like I have been given a big hug. I know its her. When I have my sleep paralysis episodes, she is the one I call for and she pulls me out every single time. Those of you that don't know what sleep paralysis is, it's when your mind wakes up before your physical body and you are paralyzed , you get stuck in REM sleep too so you hallucinate. It doesn't scared me anymore, I have learnt how to meditate out.
Well I am off now.
Peace, love and light to you all xx